Being Thankful

Gratitude should be part of our daily lives, not just something thatwe save for special occasions. When we are thankful for everything in our lives on a daily basis, our attitude changes and we are more focused on the things that matter most. If you can't be greatful for things you have in your life now, how will you ever have more? The more greatful you are, the more you will be blessed.

"If the only prayer you ever say in your life is thank you, it will be enough." - Meister Eckhart

"Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation." -Brian Tracy

"What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude" The Secret

I have to say, being thankful/greatful is something that has been able to see Jaycen and I through some really rough times. Jaycen has worked only a handful of times since Christmas and it was sporatic before that. I realize that I'm not the only person who has had a significant other in their life that has been unemployed, but it amazes me how much being it affects every aspect of that persons life and your own. Everything becomes so "right now" that the future almost ceases to exist. They are unable to make plans for the future as they can only focus on living day to day, and when will I work again? Through all of the stress, the one thing I keep going back to. Being greatful.

Number one, I am thankful I have an amazing intelligent man in my life who more than anything wants to work. Every day he has a smile on his face even though underneath it all he is borderline depressed. He never lets his frustration get to him. It amazes me how well he can handle the stress.

I have nice clothes, a warm bed, food in my fridge, great family, great friends. I have so much to be thankful for in this life. So when life seems to be getting the best of me and I just want to give up, I start making a list. A list of what I am thankful for and it always brings me back.

Every Day Super Heroes

Never underestimate the value of a female friend. Female friends can be one of the most valuable assets another woman can have because they help us cope with gravity, relationships and our world when it seems to be falling apart at the seams. Women do lunch, the Macarena and the impossible. Female friends help women lower blood pressures, cholesterol and heart rates. They are like all green lights on the way to work, being in the fastest line in the grocery store, seeing an old rival who doesn't look half as good as you do and jeans that really fit.

This is because female friends are tailor-made for our lives.

Women who are friends with other women help each other laugh at being dysfunctional, obsessive compulsive, and neurotic, because basically they are too.

Female friends bring us joy, happiness and laughter. Friends soothe, calm and help us find peace. They help make us happy, strong, humble, human, glowing, growing and live a wonderful life.

Friends help make long days seem shorter, put a smile on our face in the most grave situations and help us believe almost anything is possible. We get by with a little help from our friends.

Female friends are both silver and gold. Good friends are here today and here tomorrow. There is nothing better than a good friend--unless, it is a good friend with dark chocolate. There is wonder and joy in having and being a friend, so reach out and remember that being one is just as important as having one.

Ok. I'm better

Jaycen got home last night from a really miserable road trip, I am so happy he came home in one piece. He's been driving a truck that is less than safe---when he got back he checked the tires and one of them had the cords showing it was so bald. I am really thankful something bad didn't happen....I hate it when he leaves but it's so nice when he comes home. I know he's a pro at driving but I can't help but worry about him out there on the road. It gets really lonely around here without him, it's hard to sleep.

So the six degrees of separation has happened to me this week. It is such a small world!! So Tuesday night Jaycen calls me and tells me that Clay was on his way back from Nebraska hauling cars. He broke down in Wyoming with a load of stolen cars and they were all sent to an impound lot. Crazy. So the next day my Mom is on her way home from a business trip in Idaho with a co-worker and she says, "you will never guess who the cops are looking for". She tells me that 3 people we know, one related to my sister's husband, one my sister used to work for and my Dad's best friend. They are on the run after stealing 81 cars from their own car lot. I said to her that Clay was hauling the cars. Crazy. It's all over the news here in Utah. http://www.kutv.com/mostpopular/story/Cops-Find-3-Auto-Dealer-Execs-In-Missing-Car-Case/bFsAV5pfR0il6jlWv3M98Q.cspx

I hope everybody has a nice weekend!!

It's Been A While...

I work from home now and I love everything about it except when Jaycen is home. Sounds bad to be saying that because Jaycen is my best friend, but it is SO HARD to concentrate with him here. I don't miss the commute, the stupid drivers, wear and tear on my car. I don't miss having my boss over my shoulder all the time. I have found I have a lot more discipline than I thought I did which is cool...I really thought I wouldn't last long, but I never want to see the walls of my cubicle again!

I'm looking for a new vehicle right now and I cannot find a Dodge Durango Limited in this valley with the features I want. It's hard to believe that I can walk on to a lot and buy a vehicle and there isn't one I like. I've looked at every brand and so far I really like the Durango, now I just need to find one!!!

I am really excited Jaycen has started working again. He hates his job right now but thankfully the trucking work has picked up so he can start doing what he loves doing again. We can also start focusing on doing some fun things this year. Riding our 4-wheelers, camping, hunting...Jaycen said as soon as work picks up we can do some ring shopping too which I am really excited about!

There has been some contention between Jaycen and I off and on over the past month or so. I wouldn't blog about it if I didn't feel comfortable about talking about it, if this makes you uncomfortable, you can stop reading. I guess I can call myself damaged or whatever a shrink would call it... I also have a problem with the whole dirty talk texting and emailing with other girls. Whether joking or not. I hate that I am a jealous person and I never used to be like that (thank the cheating bastard ex-husband). It's not that I don't trust Jaycen, but I have lost a lot of confidence in myself after I was cheated on with half of the western US. So over the course of our relationship I've had some "issues" with instances of texting, pictures, emails... Jaycen is a flirt, I know that but I have a problem with women sending him pictures of their boobs, and sending him dirty emails and texts. No matter how I look at it, I can't accept it. I have no problem with Playboy Mag, and pictures of random people but not ex-girlfriends, or women he knows. Am I crazy or normal??? I don't know anymore. If you have some input on this let me know.

Well thats all for now!